Inlove.

INLOVE

My thoughts and feelings are caged
Yet so domineering, my attention to page.
Shackling my heart and my soul overwhelmingly,
It rob the night from my dreams so happily.

Like the mystery of the waterfall
Inviting a call so powerful.
To witness I must, the beauty so grand.
Arduous journey I must, to understand.

Like the water’s secret to give life,
The same water put human to strife.
A little to quench thirst,
Too much drowns the unprepared first.

Love’s secret is in the heart,
Too many words to impart.
Sincerity at best in duty
Otherwise the heart is empty


I learned another Wise word today :)

" Do not befriend someone for your own interest only. If you do, you will only hurt yourself. "

Well , it is so true .


Okay , I would love to type a LONG story today .

Saturday wake up call is so annoying , but still... i didn't wake up on time !! HAPPY! .. Mummy woke me up to get my ass to MPSJ! sadly !! I didn't go .. because I said I don't want too.. Tired la .. stay up all night & was worrying !! about him .

I donno how to put this to words . I donno how to make that move .
Im a DUMB DUMB! zzz

Okay la .. whatever that problem ! I fall asleep after afew hour later ... Lalala ~ I was in my own world .. everything was so messed up .. everything when wrong ! seriously wrong .. those dreams i dreamt was so real till i could make it an issue by emoing .. LOL .. Im so retarded .

I could be very emotional at times or let put it this way !! alll the time ! :)

I dont understand a thing that had been going through my head at times when Im free.. why does people make GOSSIPS about another people , even if that person is an unknown to the gossip lady!! WTHECK >.< ... Normally I would just say Lifeless but for this i would say " Bloody FREAKING HELL LIFELESS " so what If i want to be SS & bitchy ! DOES IT GIVES ANYTHING TO YOU PEOPLE?!
Realised this


" atleast i not like someone who just randomly go around HAHAHAHAAH like your HOUSE LIKE THAT ! "

" atleast Im not desperate for a BOYFRIEND "

" atleast I have a life & dont randomly gossip about people "

&
LAST BUT NOT LEAST !

" YOUR GOT DAMN CHEAP BITCH "
* Cheaper than a prostitute *

I dont have issues with you , so keep your mind of me . Thanks .

I bet you yourself know who you are ..

Well , I dont need a prove to prove that you say it because I know what you felt if i do so also + i do know your attitude ... But can you be more observant ?! It not me who started knowing him rite !?! You dont have rights to stop me from talking to him . screw off la ..

Your the one who puts the screw at yourself & tried to screw it yourself .. Till I burst so i just help you DRILL it la , because i cant stand your stupidity ! ....


I just dont get it .. Gossip will never end huh?

Well , your god damn own friend is being a back stepper & tell me everything , WITHOUT me asking .. to bad la .

SERIOUSLY! Your just a wind who passes through my face EVERYDAY!

Gosh , I donno how long your gonna stay that way! least to say dont be so desperate la TENG >.< ! So sad for you & your friends who is so obsessed with guys. sorry to say! But it`s a fact ....

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Im so tired . Super tired ..

Be more observant !
Scary!

It was never easy to get all sweaty !! :'(
I ran like a mad lady on the treadmill & end up only with that amount of sweat! sadly!! I have to go for higher speed !! & it makes my leg BREAK! zzzzz .. As I got down from the tread mill I couldnt feel my legs !! WTHECK>.< ... Then i started jumping around .. then I started frog jump!! haha !! >.< !
Im so gila . :D
Boo Yah :) Hey my bear! You know what Chocolate is AWESOME !
It would be nicer to share it .. But neh!! since my chocolate is EXPENSIVE ! i shall not share & make myself FATTER ! :) Great! * claps *
I changed my room .. But still end up looking messed up.. SO yeah screw my room! Can never imagine my own house when i grow up! zzzzz


Bye for now / today :)

Im waiting for Mr J !

Inlove.

?

It not worth for it .LET IT GO.

At times when I try to explain something i think back something .... Will i hurt that person feeling ... somehow la , it will end up with misunderstanding . i cant say anything . besides that I felt so speechless & avoid you for a moment .. least to say I may look nice but actually I was never nice .

Dont get me wrong or something .. we are just friend .

You respect me & i shall respect you too okay?

Sorry la If I hurt your feeling at times . ever since we fought & got back together as a normal friends it makes us hard to communicate & very easy to be in a condition which both of us can get each other wrong .


At time when i wanted to talk to him , it okay la .. let go .. I seriously donno what happennnn..


felt so stressfull ... felt so weird....


Dont wanna smile !

Need to get a life ....!

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I felt so uneasy .
Why he lied .
Why he told me lies .
Why he do that.
Why he say that so .

I do miss the past . I tried to change the situation till i came across with word that are so indescribable & It was so unexpected he would say so ..


I donno how to describe the feeling that`s currently stuck In me . I act normal . I answered all question with the answer " Im Fine "


Pathetically, I should had go for the " NO, IM NOT ! GET LOST ! "

I cant just suddenly emotional break down infront of eveyone. I feel like saying it infront of his face !!! seriously!! I beh tahan this kind of people .

Or worst come to worst I would LOVE to say it to her .. If she doesn`t mind means she one of them too..

I hate players .
I hate suckers .
I hate the fact that I have to bare with fuckers around me .
I cant stand the fact that your one of them !