I smile you laugh!

Today is presentation day :D All the best for myself

Hey readers!! there is lots to be update since God knows when, College started and here I am cracking my head over again doing homework & assignment. I have best buddies ever in class, who turns out to be best guys friends ever!! My assignment buddies, my eating friend, my lepak-ing friends & etc etc... They were one of the best in class!!

update after class if i have time ! :D bye~

How long will it be this way?

I asked many question Why me? I asked if it is my faith. Can faith be changed? The backbones are actually falling apart every time it happen. what if it's me. what if I can't change that fact that I am that way? what if I tried and fail? will you understand that I am actually trying? How drastic you expect me to change to be someone you requested for. I don't know, sometime it feels as if i am not there. I am nothing... it's probably another faith of mine right? or is it because of myself? I will never know the answer will I ? zZ!

He put me on "await"

No relationship means no boyfriend when no boyfriend means no lover when no lover means single but that doesn't i am available well forks I am NOT available. Love suck for the young age like me. why bother going for one when you know it only bring sadness instead of happiness. The laughter may only last a few month & like the wise man said, nothing last forever. Besides, It not advisable to have one when we are young, Listen up. it will only bring you sadness. Trust me. why bother getting your life stuck, well it`s a different thing f you want to have your life stuck. Well,if you really do, get your mama to do so. She would be more then delightful to do so. Trust me. beside, why doesn't people get enough of repeating the same mistake again and again. Get your first kiss by an idiot boyfriend & then a hotter chick walk pass by he run for her. DAMN IT! cheap sucker. If I am saying anyone of my ex. that would be so TRUE. Seriously, I am bored of the same reason over a break up. people complain as if my ears are theirs to throw tantrums to. there is 1 lucky guy and girl in every 10000 who gets true love in the young age. that if you`re really Lucky! damn it. Idiot trying to show off when you get someone as your lover. Damn it! who cares!! you think your boyfriend/girlfriend love you because they are sincere against you? they are loyal against you? they are so faithful to you that they will tell you everything they do/did or about to do? they convince you about how much they love you & you are that stupid to believe him/her. Help you someone. If you really love someone you would wait for a mature age to get into a relationship. You know, love never come easy in life. How much you wish to stay with him/her, that where something will be torn apart. Some may even be in a relationship after 1 days met? Explain that! That is so obvious that you just playing your lover out! Got damn it! To me, my term is call cheap!!! Get thing right when your are young people. don't screw it!

A sign.

Princess Fairytale.

24 hours without his text make me wonder if this is really happening. Perhaps, Yes. Like wise man said, human changes from time to time. I don`t blame him. I was a guilt myself for doing him like that. Perhaps he figured out it is better this way for both of us. I was so cold against him since the " happen" happened. Probably now it`s my turn to feel back what I did to him. "Karma" Damn it!. What`s the worst could happen? Let just wait & see how bad can this "happen" become.

Beware of the behaviour!

so choose

"beware"

or

behave?

I definitely choose behave? Well each person on earth have there own character, some are kind, cruel, bossy, rude, & etc.. As for me i would be? something I don`t know. Human change but u absolutely know that I am Rude. How do I change that attitude of mine? I asked but i don`t seem to get the answer right. Secondly, I have to patient. 0%. Like my mother always said, Gg Ling wait... Wait wait wait wait... & " BOOM" burst! FED-UP! How do I change that? I know Know!?! whatever it is, human do make mistakes and someone have to step up in your like to guide you back to the straight line. i am waiting. still waiting..

Bye~

Home alone.

The meal is made by me GGL.

Home alone with my annoying maid & my little brother. Basically, I had my day by doing normal stuff, play game, watch movie, eat, sleep, bath? & etc.. I had fun. In fact i love being alone. It feel free.

Bye.

Remember when we said "I do".

The star is not longer scintillate.

If feel like a long time coming. damn, I just hate that feeling.

Remember the very first time we met? How much we adore each other characters & how much we used to tease each other about always getting sick & getting MC from Surgen in Medic? Back when we were in NS. we had so much fun asking each other every time we meet about "why aren`t you sick, why aren`t you in medic?" those we days when we started liking each other & created a very hot issue in NS about being together. Now, it really doest matter anymore because you`re at far away land & i am far away land for you. Every time you text me it feel as if it was a force to do so. why bother anymore? there is no need for you to do so. I really appreciated what you did for me back then in NS. But I guess thing are different now as are separated far part. getting you hurt wasn't in my mind till someone pushed my limits to the max. I am so sorry to say it was the best option for both of us. live it wise. go with the flow.

Back when we were in NS, you bought for me bread & milk because i dislike the canteen food so much. you follow me everywhere I go to make sure i am always fine. you enter wrong class with me & pretended as if it was the right class for you. you never cheated on me to prove how much you were loyal to me. you even gave me your phone to use when my phone when out of credit. you would support my back every time i get bullied by random people. you would give me brilliant idea about ignoring my annoying friends. you would listen to me whenever i asked you to do something for me. you would take care of my feelings & you would never said unwanted thing to me. you would do stupid thing to make me smile. you don`t care about what people think about you & you would do whatever it is to cheer me up back, for example singing on the stage on the 12th.Mac.2011 that was the day of semarak kasih!. on the 13th mac.2011 you shouted "i love you gg" infront of everybody even though we are not official. things that you did for me is here kept in a secret place back of my mind.

but things got to end as I wished. It is not longer connected. it is now broken. it is now gone. i take back all the things i said, i did or even i were about to do it. things is now gone upside down.

bye.